the Editor from Heaven

its not always as we dream, that the things we plan, our future unwraps before us...yet we dream....and we dream big...we aim....and we aim high.....high as even the stars would be humbled to the ground....and we even achieve....some times more than we ever could have imagined of...but then there are always these Einsteins and the Newtons who had no other place in the whole world than ur neighborhood...!!!no matter what u do....hw good u do...they are always on the top....then there u r standing meekly infront of ur parents....with no answers to their questions...!!hw ld i knw y even after goin to the same school, goin to the same tutors (that too together) they managed to get high scores.....may be they had some genies to help them out....(i dint have one for sure!!)
and slowly the sense of unbelongingness to this world starts to pop its ugly head out....and these heads....bless me Lord....for they wont just simply go away....u cut a head off and two more would grow back in its place.....the feeling just keeps growing its roots inside...!!!the sense of unfulfillingness creeps within the skin....with it comes a sense of being lost everything, everything u ever dreamt of everything u ever wished for....e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g...!!!
that is when u tend to go inside a hole...a box...a place which will keep u safe from the roaring expectations of this world....or so do u think...!!

god knws hw long we stay in that tiny hole....braving all sorts of claustrophobia we simply stay in that dark hole for the cold wintery emotions to pass away....then there comes an angel...!!an angel with lots of love in her heart...an angel with life in her wand....!!she smiles and simply opens up the box....leads u out to the sunshine....she simply holds ur hands and suddenly u seem to feel the long lost feelings, which u were very proud of in ur kindergarten, start to tickle in ur tiny heart...ur innocence.....!!
u suddenly start to feel u are happy....the twinkling stars, the soft grass on which u lie down, the soft yet unsteady heart beats somehow tells u that....ur belonginess to the world now seems to hv a reason.....u suddenly feel that the legend of smone-smwhere-made-for-u wasn't completely a myth....u suddenly feel the gaps u had so long feared to look into are slowly fading and are replaced by the love brought about by this angel....life's beautiful again......even a small flower tends to smile at u....and u 'actually' smile back at it...as if it were going to carry that smile back to her....u look at the sky as if it wre going to show her smiling face up there.....n then slowly it happens....the most beautiful four letter word...!!u want to suddenly sing, jump, laugh and cry with joy.....(even the most crappiest of Bollywood songs makes a lot of sense to us...:P)..!!
and then some how suddenly ur life makes a call from within...u strive to be someone....someone for that lil sweet caring angel u simply started adoring...!!!life suddenly seems to take u seriously...!!things change....u chnge...the world around u changes....!!destiny changes.....!!life seems to be completely different from what it used to be.....
slowly we realize that the edit has been done.....the scripts of our lives have been changed...they have simply become more beautiful....n lovely......n adorable....!!!we love life...we love the change..we love the edit....we love the edit by the most beautiful editor from heaven....the edit which literally changes the world around us into a magical mini Utopia...!!!

Some how Some things

Somehow some things don’t simply fall in place…some even don’t qualify the characteristics of being with us….yet they certainly have a certain way of telling why they are so certainly inseparable in our so certainly uncertain lives….!!

Here as I was sitting in my room all alone in yet another chilly winter afternoon……the calendar tells me it’s already the 19^th December, less than even a week to Christmas…..the clock just ticked over the 38^th second past 4:45……the windows behind me shut tight…even the doors pretend to be air tight….and yet somehow the wind just made its way inside to find a little shelter……I dint mind that….I could use the company.…a cold, wintery yet a very serene one…..

Then I suddenly realized what it was all about……somehow some things don’t have to have meanings…don’t have to be warm to be accepted by our hearts….it is just the serene and the calm presence of them….the sense of being together that makes the difference…..some things are always meant to be viewed from a safe distance….we don’t want them near us…yet we just hold on to the sense of feeling that they are ours...it is always that something we hold really dear to our hearts…

The Golden Deer - Never to be found!

Ever wondered why? Why is it that even after we know some things cannot be ours we wish they were…why is it that just by the mere presence of them in our lives makes us think our life is so beautiful, so complete? Why is it that even when we know they can never be ours, we become theirs? And deep inside our hearts we always pray let this be not the final good bye?

These some things somehow stays with us our whole life long….and always creeps in our mind on a cold, wintery and a serene evening ….