the diary of a happy loner

waking up from a lazy afternoon is never easy....still i made an attempt to have a look at the clock on my table...it said it was still 10mins before it would have gone wild about the alarm....i decided to lie down for some more time....and let the clock go gaga about the event it was so excited about....it was its job after all...to get everyone to work and chase their dreams..(to which it always puts a limit by breaking the dreams mid-way!!)...so i had to myself 10 mins of nothingness....no points on guessing what i start thinking about - "my life"(??!!)....the age old topic of everyone's chance of thinking nothing....!!

what days they were...they sure were golden days when a paper plane landed near you, you turned around and made sure the teacher wasn't looking, and put that plane back in the air, and enjoyed the flight with it.....now such a plane makes you sad and makes you miss those days....you made a paper frog, started playing with it, the teacher sees you, and decides to make you kneel down infront of the whole class with the paper frog in the mouth, which makes you the loser of the day, and still you dare to steal a smile and wear it and later while on the way back home, laugh about it in the school bus...and the morning sun, next day, promises you to bring all the fun back again for the day.....somewhere somehow we all knew how to laugh and be happy...and even the silly, innocent jokes we cracked around used to make such a stir in our hearts....!!

we sure have learnt a lot of things....grew around a lot of new technologies....went to a lot of new places....but we forgot many things.....we forgot how to smile.....how even if we stand as a loser infront of the whole crowd there is someone deep down inside who still knows how to smile...how to make fun and laugh about it......we forgot how we played the game of seven stones...where when the ball hits u its only your back which says its hurt but your face still laughs about it....and the pain we felt was sure to go away by the night.......but not now....!!now when we are hurt we don't even make an attempt of forgetting it.......and the pain still lingers on and chases you for weeks and months together......it eats you from inside....and you slowly give in to it till you feel that deep void feeling inside you.....the nightmares haunt you.....now no matter how much attempt you make to put that smile up, you never bounce back.....it only makes you feel how worse things have gone.....
signing off,
a happy loner.....